almost there!

 im almost out of camh !! i have a community treatment order ordering me to maintain taking medication! i have a chemical imbalance and i have to take sodium regulators, and heart medication. what a thing to have to do. oh yeah and a monthly injection of someother thing for i dont know the mechanism of action actually. so its a lot to maintain. for 6 months i have to do it or the police will be called and oh my god im being treated like a  criminal thats why ive been so pissed about it. but the best news is i found a new place to live and that COHB is paying for most of the rent! its a small bachelor for $1300 a month with no laundry. so i have to watch my clothes cos theyve all been stolen by me leaving when i do do laundry in a laundromat. yeah. i figured out thats where they mostly went aside from them being all stolem during homeless times. shiyet. my identity has been robbed. turns out there are a lot of wandering souless jerks without an identity and are jealous of people who maintain their own. yuppers its pretty scary out there in the underworld. i wouldnt recommend it to anyone. anyway im all done with this arbitrary detention at camh and im reqady for the rights advisor to call my mom already! oh man its so annoying cos they can only call her at night time her time, as shes in the philippines, so since she goes to bed early its a fuckin nightmare giving me anxiety all the way home. like from 9-10 and you know they wont start work right when they get in. it pisses me off that its this way but there you go i hope it wont take long cos patrice is back from quebec and we booked a hotel room til friday only and if i dont get the rights advisor to call my mom before the thursday ill feel really shitty cos i booked for two people and patrice doesnt have anywhere else to go and he hasnt seen my apartment yet! also i have to finish paying for the thing. its super dingy and it needs a through cleaning before i move in! yeowzers! its a bit musty so im also going to want an air purifier. im worried about smoking pot there so im going to have to take walks at first and ask them if i can smoke pot on the steps outside! some landlords are super hassel about that but i need it for trauma symptoms. like its essential to my survival and mental health! i dunno whats going to happen all i know is that my cto is signed on by everyone involved and all were waiting on is the dsamn rights advisor to phone my mom then phone me. i wish my mom would take the call whenever they call her but she wont and turns her phone off to go to bed. i just wish i didnt have to have her as a secondary descition maker and will be getting my power of attourney after this fiasco for sure! she is all the way across the damn world how dare camh force me to have to have her as a secondary descition maker first of all im already traumatized they kept me indoors for almost 3 months! oh holy shit dont even get me started i already feel kind of annoyed talking about it.... anyway soon enough ill be back in a safe place sewing up some quilts -- my newest hobby biz! well i havent sold any. and ill be listing up jewelry supplies again, i was thinking of making necklace making kits for youtube and to sell the kits on etsy. one step at a time! i dont even know how ill do that but hopefully ill get something like a semblance of a digital camera going or at least a phone holder thingy.... my eyesight is getting worse. i think its because ive been under lights this whole time. i have a feeling it will get worse in the basement but i will just have to figure that out with the right lightbulbs. ok got to go, computer room time over!

bergamot tip !

im making a bergamot recreation and its already super realistic with 6 ingredients! just found 5 more to add in small amounts. im only using essential oils and its a lot of fun, like doing a puzzle or mind game, if you like those.... been making dilutions all day and im so glad i invested in 100 tiny bottles! .30 cents a piece is a small price to pay for the convenience of use! so many dilutions!
ive made a few formulas for other perfume ideas and some of the accords i made are turning out really well. if i didnt get that thanaka lime also known as persian lime (its those little black ones for food) which is citrus x latifolia (key lime and lemon) i wouldnt have been able to make this wonderful bergamot recreation!
some of the ingredients im using are
bitter orange (citrus x aurantium) respiratory, lemon (citrus limon), blood orange (citrus x sinensis), ...... woops ! dont want to give it all away! specially now that im getting better. at making perfume formulas. its like when you get that click in your head..all my years of reading and learning and smelling are now exploding and i kind of finally know what the heck im doing making these perfumes. so this one is all essential oils. if i get these oils as therapeutic grade this blend would be the best! cos its got so many other beneficial plants in it ... this blend would be great as an

oil and it will be my first experiment with roller bottles and making a "perfume oil" but actually its an aromatherapy blend... but dont tell anyone that! atomizer blend! its for my lungs, a stimulant, it will refresh your system (conceptually) im reading about the medicinal properties of the individual chemical constituents in the oils im using to "recreate bergamot" which has an interesting lineage! but i think calling it a perfume would be more chic. i think im going to call it Bergamot 41.... for my "original"  birthday creation. of course i had a little help along the way from all the little avatars on basenotes..... (a lot of help in the form of nudges i got from comments and posts and i would make mental notes while doing the work of smelling/memory and creation) if it works out its a simple accord and also a complicated formula. I got the lime to rework the cannabis accord actually.. wanted to try to make a bergamot with lemonile and triplal but will play with these maybe have a version with a.c.'s to add structure and longevity and strength.. and while trying to find out what triplal and lemonile was and how it could be bergamot, i ended up making a bergamot, 1, because i go a nature identical "essential oil" and a real one from the same vendor but drat could not find the bergamot, which has aired out. i did however have my old sample still and used it as a reference instead but have been using my suppliers analysis to recreate the bergamot. it would also be good as a tincture or super dilution as a flavouring there is ... ok i will give up more ingredients... hyssop (hyssopum officianalis and chamomile (chamomelum nobille) blood thinner which are beneficial  get so excited with dumb things i learn i want to tell everyone and find out what they know about it too. im such a doofus of course everyone hates this kind of behaviour. when i made the second version and smelled my last bergamot sample from new directions as a comparison i could not believe how accurate my choices were!!! of course it needed fleshing out but wow! ive never done this before picture me on the sofa on the coffee table all these bottles everywhere sniffing one palm then the other giggling with glee and shock (the bergamot from new directions was inexpensive though, do you think it was diluted, the sample on wikipedia is green almost like olive and ive never bought one like that) (i wondered if after all the good stuff was done how many more passes ethyl alcohol will have on the pressed peels) interesting bit is learning about the history of lime, which originated from a philippine citrus, from the south, not for food use but rather cosmetic in use due to its use as a shampoo (the citric acid i suppose closes the hair shaft, cleanses the scalp, and makes the hair very shiny and the oil makes the hair fragrant) it might have also coloured the hair to orange or lighter brown because of the high bergapten in the oil. which is photosensitive, then down the line as the fruit was passed along as a gift- because it would have been rather precious to tend to a live plant across the ocean if they were just using huge galleons at the time. . .i guess they brought seeds but the live plant as a gift is def the way to go and totally believeable because why import a plant that has no nutritional value (oh wait..scurvy)  at some point this lime was crossed with lemon to make the key lime probably adding more pulp as described in wiki, then this fruit was paired with the bitter orange to make bergamot . . . the rest is history !-- ok wait im a bit confused here. so citrus micrantha is bred citrus limon and then with bitter orange to make bergamot. in world war 2 italy was banned from exporting bergamot by the allied forces (united nations) to tone down their aggression during the war so other countries took over the bergamot trade for a while using sweet limes from brazil so the smell is not the same which is why (maybe) there are two bergamot oils. the original one and the fake one. and also to note bergamot oil i guess is classified as a fragrance oil because it was bred for cosmetic use. isnt that a weird spin.  there isnt much study on the medicinal effects of bergamot as of 2017. the poison is the dose is why the original limes were small and had not much juice. the strength of the scent carried it through and its origin was not lost because the fragrance could be traced. much like language and genes.

um, hello im in this

the vancouver sun? online edition??blog! :D coooool

http://communities.canada.com/vancouversun/blogs/greenteam/archive/2009/04/24/the-green-team-gets-crafty-at-metropolis.aspx

ehem. i love earth day! now if only i can access my site...

vynil zipper pouch tutorial video

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meeeehhh! (sheep bler) ok so this is the tute i made for instructables. theres another one with cute fabric, promise :D of a card wallet like the ones at paperya and in my shop. i didnt and couldnt really go find better vynil so i got this stuff which i thought could look good and if you sew the whole thing with a prefered fabric over it it will be super cool.
its supposed to have fit the category special needs coz i do notice 1. old people, 2. special needs 3. drunklike/kind of messed up but has a medicalbuspass or something 4. kids 5. if your hip, on your hip, you could make it rock busspass users. i dont buy one coz its expensie i have a bike and dont bus as much. so when i was going to upload it i checked the other tutes (which are awesome) there already was a belt pouch in there ;; nye. kapikon nevermind na talaga. padah, thanks simes for videoing and edits on quicktime coz im such a ditz, ill figure it out one day!
meanwhile...
i got a wide plastic basin for the bathroom and cleaning. so ive taken to putting it under the leak in the shower faucet.. and it fills up really quickly with so sometimes i use the water but most times it just keeps overflowing. it never gets fixed properly and its the hot water tap. when theres no music playing, or even if the fan isnt on or whatever (like right now) its in the background noise all. the. time. i think i might go insane. luckily simon just got back :D
xo

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my internet video stardom launch :D
a teen found me annoying! im touched. i did want to edit that last bit out but simes didnt say anything so we left it. haha!!!

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