New Story

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if a love can be anything as it is undefinable in its position what does a love using sustained thought plus effort over time create.
if you interchange the word love with human because love is a human understanding it would be earlier to answer.
if love was for humans we would be gods
but we're still acting like awkward teenagers who don't know how to fit in.
if we were gods our love would create the space for humans to love.

it didn't seem to work the last time.
we need a new story.

"little bit - drake remix" -re: earth

Attachment Styles....

i figured out whats wrong with me!
complex post traumatic stress disorder
with a preoccupied attachment style. my chart is off the hook on fear/anxiety in regards to my mother. duh.... but luckily, i have an extremely secure attachment style to my father and in turn translates to an excellent attachment style with friends... but my poor romantic partners suffer my preoccupied anxiety! like, omgz lol wtf and am i dreaming or did i find out whats wrong with me for real ?

this wonderful resource tells about attachment styles and also has tests! i love tests. you can download the test as a document and keep it. no tracking shite on this site it is totally LEGIT
http://internal.psychology.illinois.edu/~rcfraley/attachment.htm



Aliveness,
exploration
Aliveness,
energy
Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?

Aliveness,
exploration
Fulfillment,
creativity

Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Or are you toxic for me?
Will you betray my confidence?

Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Or are you toxic for me?
Will you betray my confidence?

Naming things is empowering
I balance,
walk and co-or-din-ate myself alone

Aliveness,
energy

Healthy dependence
And healthy independence
And healthy assurances

This love's a nameless dream
And healthy boundaries
And how long would you miss me

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written by
FRASER, ELIZABETH/GUTHRIE, ROBIN/RAYMONDE, SIMON
a day or so ago i asked the i ching something. it gave me hexagram 50.4> 44 re: inquiring if someone has a personality disorder> which in turn essentially reflects my self...anyway, i got this hex before. it is the same hexagram, different changing line. the only other labeled hexagram post i make on my blog. that post i made in 2008, that same thread i read over 2 years ago- applies/parallels so hard core right now it is uncanny. i am stunned at the "hello" of synchronicity.

back in vancouver

gah swear to god updates in sec. pics too!! if your my myspace or facebook friend i posted some new pics there.

meanwhile
uffie's first love. so cutie!!!!!

You'll have to say

You were the sex dream of my magazine,
you blew my mind like no one of the human kind.
You were the only one I could ever speak,
this secret language between us in the sheets.

You made my mind and body so high,
youve turned this wild child into a lady by night.
And when I met you long ago, I was so alone,
my heart was beating so fast I had to write this song, and it goes:

You make me feel so beautiful,
Its like the sun is always shining when you are in control.
You are my mister mystery and
Theres no way I can explain the way you make me feel.

Late night loving on your balcony,
Im feeling wobbly at the knees who thought that would be me.
You lift me up to where I want to be, you make everything so clear I can finally see...

You are, the one that I always think about.
My first love that I made this song about.
You know me well and you always make me feel,
like Im the one and I know your love is real.

I love it when you whisper in my ear,
you say the sweetest things that I wanted to hear.
I never thought I could feel this way,
and when I leave you in the morning I think of you all day.

I feel so peaceful after we make love,
I lay into forever just like the sweetest drug.
And the whole world around us stops and stares,
it feels so good to fall asleep knowing that you are there.. c!mon!

You make me feel so beautiful,
Its like the sun is always shining when you are in control.
You are my mister mystery and
Theres no way I can explain the way you make me feel.

And when you left me out this day,
I thought you will come back anyway...
you dont, you dont, you dont... but thats ok.

I aint gonna fall, I gotta get up and roll, thats the way you want it... and I wont help it.
Im off to search a new lover,
with my chance I might find better..
I can picture you alone and bitter and with the time.. You'll have to say
Damn I wonder why I broke up with that cool chick,
now Im wasting all this time looking for girls to meet.

You are the one, that I always think about,
my first love that I made this song about.
You know me well, and you always make me feel.
Like Im the one, and I know your love is real.

Im so alone, I can get her phone....
I can call her back, and ask her to take me back.
Girl: Hello?
Guy: Yeah yeah it's me
Girl: Yea so?
Guy: I made a huge mistake
Girl: Uh huh yeah you did!

Ya don't?, ya don't?, ya don't?,
Ya don't?, ya don't?, ya don't?
Ya don't?