on todays menu... stabby!

 today im going to make something but i dont know what.  the market is in 3 days.

maybe more pouches. i have this super cute "france tourism" fabric i dont know how to use. its got pictures , drawings and fundamentalist colourful, of france scenes: little scooter, eiffel tower, cute side streets, i think theres a poodle in there... ill post a pic from my phone:

i wanted to quilt it but i dont know how to add the other shapes around it. what shapes. where.

oh i just remembered these already made project panels i bought. yay im going to use them. theres 4 of these placemat projects but im going to make it a pouch with an outside pocket:

also just bought an $18 bag of quilt batting 45x60 inches or so arriving tomorrow thanks to amazon. kind of expensive for a small piece it is polyester. i read all the cotton reviews and i just gave up. it looks like most come apart when washed and you have a lump of cotton between the unquilted portions . i was thinking i should use instacart more if im lazy. i have to go to the dufferin fabricland before it shuts down for good everything is on discount clearance. they opened one on yonge and bloor which is so convenient so that dufferin one is closing. anyway that dufferin on transit is a bus ride and walking but its by highways in a really uncomfortable manner. busy highways, so uncomfortable to walk by. i dont have a car so i never go to the locations that are super far unless i live near them somehow like the dufferin one i was living in north york at the time.... those landlords havent paid me back yet. did you read about twitter having to sue the ADL some jewish defamation league, for defamation, on twitter? like wow guys these jewish people are getting way out of control if they want to remain as a whole person, just one jewish, just jew, they really need to step it up. like my old landlord is super uber jewish with 11 children im not sure if they were like amish people or something but they were like amish people or something totally lying through the skin of their teeth nodding their heads ..... in the end they refuse to return my damage deposit after threatening me so many fucking times about smoking inside the house and i wasnt smoking pot in the house whatsoever like one time i even tested it and knew those fucking kids were right at my door spying on me, depressing me, harassing me, i busted up, loudly, the stankiest weed i had bought in a while to ROLL a joint and i could hear them giddily gobbling up a single terp, one molecule of cannabinoid in their delicate spying little fucking noses... could literally hear them giggling and saying thats def weed lol, fucking annoying brady bunch looking all uniform wearing little fuckers.... constantly running up around forcing the little ones to stomp on top of my entire apartment when parents were not home, just miserable fucking children with nothing to do when at home, like honestly and vacuuming right first thing the girls would do in the morning after getting ready for their boring ass days ffs..... yeah i felt fucing tortured in the freezing cold basement with a broken kitchen window and sticky walls that pat and i painted first fucking thing he did, ew the walls in the kitchen were repulsive, only 1,300 i says though the laundry was 4 blocks away easy,  carpeted too with the most hideous flooring in the main room, all beige and browns and streaky looking and not shiny. just ew.  in the end they steal my last months rent because he demanded me to pay rent the month i was moving out and i gave them enough notice, they were fucking horrible traumatizing fucks that didnt pay me back, he demanded i pay rent on the last month i stayed, and i had painted the kitchen and one side of the main room. i also detail cleaned the bathroom and mopped the dingy cough inducing mildewey carpeted walls. and also detail cleaned the black mold on the venetian blind in the entrance window, which was completely filthy. as if i dont charge myself for what i do. i had to live there. their place from the looks of it, was meticulous. not sure why or how their rental was so affordable in comparison to the rest? hmm. with the money they stole they could have bought me a washer dryer and another month would have paid for carpet removal and linoleum or double paned windows, just no as if that plus what they did to me was what i deserved plus forcing me to pay a months rent on the month i was to leave, so what the fuck did i pay the damage deposit for? these fucking people thought it was ok, after literally renting the place with a fucking social worker explaining my condition and trauma regarding theft with a well written letter, plus albion housings crew coming to explain and get the lease etc holy fucking shit i even had the ministry of housing pay them directly, to which they did and accidentally over paid them because of how the housing costs are doled out by agency or department and not a the lump sum oh just fucking no. incredible trauma from these people like why show me your whole fam and say youre this without telling me you were like super poor . well i guess this is what i understood. but yo i asked the guy the landlord if they were ok for moneey- because he had my damage and no word of a lie said not a single word to me about the fucking gorgeous paint job pat did in that god awful kitchen, an indication of pure fuckery coming....... ugh so where was i, at a loss of $1,548 by the hands of a large fundamentalist jewish family of 11.... blatant thieves i felt my human rights were being flagrantly violated, bullied by children and stigmatized by adults about pot smoking is not what you want in a basement suite with no laundry in the middle of nowhere and a highway to cross daily.  

yeah so what am i going to make today. i hope something that makes me some money!!  ooooh maybe ill make stabby, my stuffed aromatherapy knife.  you just drip essential oils onto it and it smells good while you stab away at stuff! yeah! i wonder if i can use the black and white gingham for the knife part... what about the handle just plain black? i have polka dots but i think it would be too busy and both non black. yeah totally gonna make stabby today. been thinking about this project for a while.

today im smoking on maple pancakes by potluck. tastes just like original haze! yummy! got it at the ocs for like 40 a quarter so worth it though the convenience and its packaged cleanly no animal hairs.... 

quilt blocks so far

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QUILT BLOCKS

Pics of the blocks so far!

I'm using the pattern I bought on Etsy

 "B. Annie Quilt"

Ok

I'm editing now(edit)

Thing is I think most of the original pics are on my flip phone. But I got this phone for taking pics right but this phone's camera kind of sucks it's only good for super close up you can have the lens like 4 centimeters away . I got it for jewelry supplies and what not but now that I got it it's literally useless for anything else. Except maybe wear and tear. It's supposed to be impervious to damage! (Smashes phone on ground, picks it up np) yeah dumb huh. It was 140 dollars. With a warning not to take the battery out. The iPhone Billy (bully) gave me got damaged and then I guess hacked and then I couldn't update it and then someone stole it. From my room. So I have to be strict no more porkchop bugging me exhausted from being in his dregs squalor palace. I don't know what to do cos they're raised differently. It's fucks with me because I think he is normal as he acts normal, or pretends to be cohesive but he just looks that way. Anyway I think I want another iPhone. I'll try to register next month and sell this one. But I like its strength 💪 feature

Ok this part is the first post:

 no shouting shhhh 

i finished my first quilt block and its super cute and im working on the second one but i stalled all day on the bobbin rethreading so i didnt quilt today. 

since all i have is a flip phone the pics are really bad. my digital camera is broken so theres really no alternative. when i finish the second blcok ill edit this post to make it my first quilt post.

Cold Process soap making

Here are the cold process soaps i made

turns out i accidentally supperfatted my recipes, to about 1-2% wondering why there was an oil part after most of the soap seemed to have already set, then much later this oil part also set. could it be the superfat excess oil that didnt saponify due to lack of lye or is that just how it goes.  
The lye concentration recommended by the chemist in manila is at 28% and he said that was the minimum so as not to make a harsh soap but ive seen recipes with a 29.something % lye concentration.

Made three different kinds so far. Well four. One is a layered clay soap, one is a plain coconut oil soap with less than a gram of an aromatherapy oil blend, the last is a coconut oil soap and added about a gram of a soothing salve from the expo job.  this one had much more of that excess oil that took longer to firm up after the initial trace. each soap is 100 grams, so the clay soap is 200 grams. its a bit thick. was thinking of slicing it at the layer.

there is some oil left over and will make a couple to a few more bars.... what else can i add? i dont want to waste my essential oils, and i just realized the old fragrance oils i have might not even be for body care (woops)

next to make is a light pink soap with rose and violet leaf. will use way less of the clay so it wont look like a brick. ...
found a soap calculator http://soapcalc.net/calc/soapcalcwp.asp 
and superfatted the pink clay rose soap by 15% and for some reason also added 3 grams of stearic acid. mixed it more because the clay was added with the rose oil and added at trace, then realized i had used the wrong formula and needed to add 12 grams more of lye solution, mixed it again, and did not do that weird oil separating thing. wow. turns out the first bars were not mixed enough.
ok....

 took out the clay soap from the mold, probably two days too early
 it looks super cool. i love how much it looks like a cement block and i love that you can see the folds of the milk box. cant wait to get great at this and also make my own molds.

meanwhile havent done anything about my destash or listing old jewelry stuff up online :/
all i want to do is make soap now. i even forgot about my lotion making. was supposed to get some xanthan and guar gum but i fear the emulsifying wax is wrong. have to try it out anyway. dont really trust the wax or the lady. she didnt really label the products properly and she told me KOH is an additive that makes skin better. so im hesitating. im going to go with what i believe from what she said. i asked her if it was emulsifying wax nf and she said it was emulsifying wax EO, which doesnt exist, so it might be emulsifying wax o (from new directions, because thats where some of her carrier oils were from)
the smell of the clay soap is wafting towards me... a nice fresh, warm hay scent.
hopefully they'll turn out, specially now that ive realized they were not blended properly.
wont even know until a month from now (at least) because they need to cure. damn! im so ready to use them.
next batch will be one large batch and ill use the mixer.

so the next batch to make will be honey and milk soap. found out you add the powdered milk to the oil before adding the lye. and honey after trace and mix very well. someone online mentioned adding the honey to the lye, and tried that and it changed colour to a bright pink.
in manila, we learned to add all the water ingredients to the lye water, so adding the honey to the lye made sense but the colour... couldn't figure out where the milk powder went so after the lye turned pink with honey i added the milk powder to it and it looked like vomit. that's when i threw it out and made new lye water....

this is so exciting! i love milk and honey smelling soaps and lotions.
i love learning how to make new things!

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here is the picture of the unboxed pink and white layer.
the white layer wasnt mixed properly. so it was soft and stuck to the container a bit.
the pink clay layer is great, mixed properly, but i didnt want to use essential oils anymore so i used artificial...and its the best bar. ugh.
didnt buy oil again yet.
really love these naturally coloured clay soaps. not sure if i want to slice the green and grey one. im just going to leave these as is because they are my first ones. the yellow one in the round container is also not mixed properly so its still soft too.

here is the soft white one. it got hard! i like it because its so banged up. poor little bar. it just wasnt ready yet.

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im making soap right now and it 4:30 in the morning. woops. woke up from a nap. bought sunflower oil earlier and now im wondering about adding honey to milk and honey bar
this tutorial helped me realize the first soaps never went through this gel phase, they were just not mixed properly.
https://www.soapqueen.com/bath-and-body-tutorials/tips-and-tricks/adding-honey-to-cold-process-soap-tips-tricks-recipe/
i never make the soaps hot. it seems too tedious to wait for the temperatures to catch up with each other or have to heat one or wait for one to cool down.
like this http://www.soap-making-essentials.com/what-temperature-should-lye-water-be.html the comments are quite useful.
another thing i realized is that some oils are cheaper at the grocery, plus no shipping. now im wondering about the lye water available in chinese groceries, but still havent learned the percentage of lye in that water. because otherwise theres a hefty hazmat charge for shipping lye and im almost out of my little 300g container. (oh the hardware stores got lye, duh)

added honey to the soap and the little globules are not dispersing with no hand mixer. i hope this soap turns out.
10 mins later
well it wont because the honey keeps sinking to the bottom so i poured it off and will again before it goes into the mold. besides i measured the oil wrong so the container im going to use is slightly too small. turns out thats perfect because i dont want to add honey to soap anymore until i know how or why im doing it. the honey smell comes from the beeswax but its not very strong at all. i used about 1.5%
so far the soap smells really nice, mildly honey and slightly creamy.
i hope those damn globules of honey dont pour in when i mold it. theyre gonna sink to the bottom and its gonna be weird. oh yeah. itll get weird. reading these comments https://www.soapqueen.com/bath-and-body-tutorials/tips-and-tricks/adding-honey-to-cold-process-soap-tips-tricks-recipe/
guess my main take away here is dont add liquid honey to your soap. just make tea and drink it instead.
15 mins later
um, wow. maybe im an idiot savant or something but i just finished pouring out the soap, poured it twice to remove the sunken honey, and it fits *perfectly* into the container now.
so im really excited for this soap and i hope it firms up. i wont try to remove it prematurely like all the rest. im so excited to slice it!!!
here is the picture of my little loaf
its a plastic desk organizer.
and of course the oil is Unico because i am indeed, nico.

oh pic later the ones i just took are all blue and bad.

hey the soap is still at light trace.
its been at least 10 hours.

found this http://www.soap-making-essentials.com/sunflower-oil.html which says sunflower oil takes forever to saponify and is a soft bar, glad i added beeswax... but its still liquidy :(

i think i like coconut for soap the best. even though ive only tried two different oils ><
got to get a blender to reach trace quicker. my vintage mixer is splattery.

its been over a day and now the oil seems to have separated on top. not sure if it should be remixed. its pudding like

well here it is, june 25, the soap is done. so done i am throwing it away!!!!

 there are little dots of orange oil seeping out

 i think its the powdered milk particles

 it was crumbly and smelled weird... gross.

when i made the melt and pour with powdered milk, i mixed the powder with 98% alcohol, and nothing happened to the milky melt and pour soaps, one is sitting in a wet dish by the sink ever since i made them, they have stearic acid to stay hard and the milky melt and pours dont have any problems..... but this milk and honey bar is broken. so its going to be thrown away.
doesnt it look like a bad brie?

Handmade Jewelry Cabochons / Cameos for sale

An Its Your Life original product
for your creations

Handmade in Canada using vintage paint images from the U.K., on new plastic domed cabochons made in the U.S.A.,
some are coated with a matte varnish.
DIY: essential to use a water based varnish before using a lacquer if you want to customize the finish. any solvent based lacquer will shrivel the paint image unless it is sealed with a water based varnish.

A variety of cameos and images are available. Would you like a custom order of specific colours and finishes? Contact me, or comment on this post.
...might post direct paypal links under each lot, if i can figure out shipping, otherwise let me know which lots you would like and we can work out a paypal invoice.
thanks for browsing!
happy crafting ^-^

large mixed lot of handmade flower and animal cameos. kitschy bits for your creations. measuring 25x18mm these are new plastic cabochons (unless otherwise specified) with vintage paint images permanently affixed on them. Some are further finished with a matte varnish.

handmade animal and flower cameos by itsyourlife

  set of 4 black vintage blue tit bird round cameos measuring 20 mm

   set of 4 black vintage squirrel cameos measuring 25 x 18 mm

 set of 4 turquoise blue vintage squirrel cameos measuring 25 x 18 mm

6 vintage bird images on new turquoise blue cameos measuring 25 x 18 mm a wren on a holly type branch and an unknown bird (do you know what type of bird that is, probably from the uk)

 mix of 8 vintage fox cameos measuring 25x18 mm, the forest green metallic swirl ones are vintage plastic the rest are on new cameos

 mix of squirrel cameos measuring 25 x 18 mm

 set of four deer cameos measuring 25 x 18mm the images are vintage the cameo is new

 these are vintage floral turquoise swirled plastic cameos measuring 12 x 17 mm