almost there!

 im almost out of camh !! i have a community treatment order ordering me to maintain taking medication! i have a chemical imbalance and i have to take sodium regulators, and heart medication. what a thing to have to do. oh yeah and a monthly injection of someother thing for i dont know the mechanism of action actually. so its a lot to maintain. for 6 months i have to do it or the police will be called and oh my god im being treated like a  criminal thats why ive been so pissed about it. but the best news is i found a new place to live and that COHB is paying for most of the rent! its a small bachelor for $1300 a month with no laundry. so i have to watch my clothes cos theyve all been stolen by me leaving when i do do laundry in a laundromat. yeah. i figured out thats where they mostly went aside from them being all stolem during homeless times. shiyet. my identity has been robbed. turns out there are a lot of wandering souless jerks without an identity and are jealous of people who maintain their own. yuppers its pretty scary out there in the underworld. i wouldnt recommend it to anyone. anyway im all done with this arbitrary detention at camh and im reqady for the rights advisor to call my mom already! oh man its so annoying cos they can only call her at night time her time, as shes in the philippines, so since she goes to bed early its a fuckin nightmare giving me anxiety all the way home. like from 9-10 and you know they wont start work right when they get in. it pisses me off that its this way but there you go i hope it wont take long cos patrice is back from quebec and we booked a hotel room til friday only and if i dont get the rights advisor to call my mom before the thursday ill feel really shitty cos i booked for two people and patrice doesnt have anywhere else to go and he hasnt seen my apartment yet! also i have to finish paying for the thing. its super dingy and it needs a through cleaning before i move in! yeowzers! its a bit musty so im also going to want an air purifier. im worried about smoking pot there so im going to have to take walks at first and ask them if i can smoke pot on the steps outside! some landlords are super hassel about that but i need it for trauma symptoms. like its essential to my survival and mental health! i dunno whats going to happen all i know is that my cto is signed on by everyone involved and all were waiting on is the dsamn rights advisor to phone my mom then phone me. i wish my mom would take the call whenever they call her but she wont and turns her phone off to go to bed. i just wish i didnt have to have her as a secondary descition maker and will be getting my power of attourney after this fiasco for sure! she is all the way across the damn world how dare camh force me to have to have her as a secondary descition maker first of all im already traumatized they kept me indoors for almost 3 months! oh holy shit dont even get me started i already feel kind of annoyed talking about it.... anyway soon enough ill be back in a safe place sewing up some quilts -- my newest hobby biz! well i havent sold any. and ill be listing up jewelry supplies again, i was thinking of making necklace making kits for youtube and to sell the kits on etsy. one step at a time! i dont even know how ill do that but hopefully ill get something like a semblance of a digital camera going or at least a phone holder thingy.... my eyesight is getting worse. i think its because ive been under lights this whole time. i have a feeling it will get worse in the basement but i will just have to figure that out with the right lightbulbs. ok got to go, computer room time over!