New picsart pics

Made these ones of me

I made another one but it didnt save so in frustration i just deleted the pp. will have to try again maybe the app aves it but I doubt theyll give me my work so easily if they have to dig around for it. Its free. It was a semi topographical nude turned green and cut out and pasted on an image of an artists redition of a wormhole. Actually i looked at the pics and it looks like how adaw met ave remember that story i came up with the three realms the paychedelic one, the one with more people and the one woth le people and why and how it was so trippy lol i must have been maliciously given pcp or something cos indidnt know i was crazy at the time. Oh well ce la vie as its said in a foreign language life is beautiful and it is what you make of it.

Disassociative Amnesia

learned a new term today, still reading about it, and then i remember all the parts i forgot. well i dont actually. but now i have a term for not remembering long periods of time, or how i come to the new month or year without forming a long term memory of the month or year prior. im a goldfish. damn.

happy valentines day btw
for my own gift to myself im cleaning the house so i can have a nice time rolling on the dust mite free floor. was just reading a study on atopic dermatitis and it spoke of dust mites from dogs. gross. and i thought of that night i went to use the washroom and didnt wear my slippers and when i got back into bed i thought i felt my feet itchy and got so grossed out i sprayed them with alcohol then they didnt itch anymore and i realized ive only mopped the floor twice and not one of those times was with borax nor bleach blech. so im wiping surfaces today, reducing the dust that harbors mites and bacteria, cleaning the air at source. or something. im taking my lunch break and there are 5 minutes left before i get back to the grind of whirlwinding around in circles, wiping, and picking things up and putting them somewhere else. happy valentines day to me. im looking forward to the cleared mind state because i havent finished the coat due to zipper attachment anxiety.

Adjusted Bodice Sloper *new pics added*

Bought this dress for 5 bucks at a clearance shop with the idea of fixing it, and I did, just didn't do a super perfect job lol

Anyway I was able to make a sloper that fits my body perfectly and that was worth it because I've been *wanting* to make underwear but haven't really taken any steps towards making any (need a new machine with the zigzag stitch-the one with three stitches per zag) until I made this pattern.

this is the back part of the dress. i already took the front part off

 this is the lining. i used this to make my pattern. you can see the original size on the left side, and on the right side i've put the two pieces closer together to make it smaller.

 i can't really remember how i figured out how to adjust the boob parts. i think i just pinched the fabric and marked it and guesstimated. oh wait. i didnt guesstimate that much cos you need to match up the measurements. when everything was adjusted i traced the fabric pieces on paper and cut it out and thats now my pattern.

 here is the lining all sewed up, i did a running stitch and fitted it to make sure, then went over it with the machine

 this is the denim/front part. the cups had a fused interface which i didn't remove.

 

the weird part was i couldn't remember how the lining and the front was attached. it was kinda complicated, the bottoms of the cups were somehow blind stitched onto the front but the rest was loose ugh. i dunno what i did- had to turn the thing inside out and pass it through itself. it was really confusing

amazingly enough i managed to save most of the original topstitched-washed edges on the front side and was able to follow along those lines so here it is all sewed up and ready to re-attach back onto the dress. tbh i think this pic might be the front part before i took it apart. wait a second, this make shift tute is getting progressively worse.

 anyway, its done now but i didnt do that good of a job and its a bit wonky. probably because i was too lazy to take the original zipper completely off and i didnt really think about it. so yeah...

so here are the pics of me wearing it all wonky.

its not much work to do it again so when i have time and do some sewing ill finish it. maybe lol
it needs a lot of work like it needs maybe a bra sewed in the cups if i ever wanted to wear it without a bra. hah im so lazy. ok yeah so probably itll look great with a strapless bra. i dont have one.

 ok and here is the zipper side. see what i mean i was being impatient. and look at the results. horrible. also i need to take it in more so its fit perfect. that would also help the bralessness issue.

 this is the other side and see what i mean? i need to sew it in where the dark parts are and it will be a better fit with the fixed zipper side. duh. and match up with the belt. double duh did you see the zipper side belt part lol

 pa dah its all wonky and shiz you guyses. i dunno. but i have a pattern now and yeah ok i guess it could be ok. for sleeping.

if redo it ill post it again.

oh let me take pics of the inside and ill post here.

Attachment Styles....

i figured out whats wrong with me!
complex post traumatic stress disorder
with a preoccupied attachment style. my chart is off the hook on fear/anxiety in regards to my mother. duh.... but luckily, i have an extremely secure attachment style to my father and in turn translates to an excellent attachment style with friends... but my poor romantic partners suffer my preoccupied anxiety! like, omgz lol wtf and am i dreaming or did i find out whats wrong with me for real ?

this wonderful resource tells about attachment styles and also has tests! i love tests. you can download the test as a document and keep it. no tracking shite on this site it is totally LEGIT
http://internal.psychology.illinois.edu/~rcfraley/attachment.htm



Aliveness,
exploration
Aliveness,
energy
Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?

Aliveness,
exploration
Fulfillment,
creativity

Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Or are you toxic for me?
Will you betray my confidence?

Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Or are you toxic for me?
Will you betray my confidence?

Naming things is empowering
I balance,
walk and co-or-din-ate myself alone

Aliveness,
energy

Healthy dependence
And healthy independence
And healthy assurances

This love's a nameless dream
And healthy boundaries
And how long would you miss me

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written by
FRASER, ELIZABETH/GUTHRIE, ROBIN/RAYMONDE, SIMON
a day or so ago i asked the i ching something. it gave me hexagram 50.4> 44 re: inquiring if someone has a personality disorder> which in turn essentially reflects my self...anyway, i got this hex before. it is the same hexagram, different changing line. the only other labeled hexagram post i make on my blog. that post i made in 2008, that same thread i read over 2 years ago- applies/parallels so hard core right now it is uncanny. i am stunned at the "hello" of synchronicity.

OH> MY> GOD!!!!

thanks to nancey pelosi (on yuotube) for uploading:
51 Filipino Workers kidnapped to work on US Embassy in Baghdad:


♥ lochli23's channel..where i found this video:
http://www.youtube.com/user/lochli23