Finished quilt!

​the quilt is totally finished! All the edges are all sewn up the cotton trim is adorable!! I need to go wash it now and see how it stands up to the test of the commercial washer down the street ohhh i cant wait to smell it all soft and fresh !!! This is hands down the best thing i made for myself. All the clothes i made were stolen, bags i dont use anymore, little pouches yeah, but this… this is enormous! Oh yeah theres that cute coat i made but its too small for me go figure i make something too small. Actually this quilt is a bit small for a full or twin sized mattress, the edges just make it. If i was to be sharing there would be blanket snatching during the night the quilt would have to go sideways no?? Its so great but now that its all grown up i want another baby…to sell! What a challenge. Also i fucked up and i think this is the last day of the fabricland sale…..i didnt buy anything else when i bought the duvet cos it was 50 bucks and i was being conservative. I should go, there was some super cute fabric to get but without a pattern, how willi know how much fabric to buy? I supposed i could buy fabric for these blocks and make a similar quilt carefully not recreating the one i just made cos this one is mostly copyrighted patterns from the etsy book i bought to learn. I also wanted to buy some quilting books on thriftbooks but i didnt because im trying to figure out how to maximize my time effort and money. Like now for sure i want to get the sewing machine fixed, i didnt before because i was going to hand-sew and now that its done i want the machine again to piece more blocks. Actually some of the blocks are patterns i came up with but im still not sure what hercopyright is… will have to reread it… i should send her a picture of the quilt! Yup i got a new hobby.ithink of  Simons mum a lot cos she is a fabulous quilter and has scores of completed quilts at home just piling up from what i remember.

I left the back part just plain. Basically its a blanket it sewed all around the edges. Think itll be ok but i might tack it on from the top. I dunno if i need to though cos the static and the surface nature of the two fabrics the duvet and the front of the polyester sheet stick together, so the back is this kind of slippery feel. Its a blanket from a shelter i had and it fit perfectly. Go figure. Same shelter that stole my mail which was a package of cubic zirconia diamonds. Fuckin shelter system you know they really fucked up and just tormented and targeted women during the emtire covid i hated all the african staff they treated the women so badly what the fuck. They claimed their lives mattered more than the shelter participants and would kick women out on the street for no reason whatsoever.

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Yipee i just got back from fabricland and i totally took advantage of the sale. Got a bumch of fabric for my next quilt project, my two feather pillow covers project, and a bunch of sequin appliqués i want to put on a quilted bag project. 

Then after fabricland i walked in the rain to wilson to go to my local vape store but they didnt have the pods i wanted nor did they have the vape juice i wamted so i bought two disposable vapes for 11 something bucks as they were on sale. 

Then i got back and bought bbq from the filipino bbq on the corner of wilson and bathurst the filipino side. Honestly their chicken is better than the pork. 

So now im all full and what a turn out of a day. I totally invested my cash and treated myself. Heres the fabric stack and a sequin applique shot 

I thought the day was done for when i fell into remembering how the shelters would kick me out over and over again for no reason whatsoever. I cant even right now. Yeah so i salvaged the day and hope i wont remind myself how badly i was treated by other women who really had no business being the decision maker in weather or not a woman would have to spend the night outside during winter when the shelters were not even full. So yeah i was really lucky i thought of fabric land. Oh yeah also i walked to value buds on dufferin and bought a new cart thc 90% cbg 10% from spinach and it smells great actually. Then the budtender who i totally appreciated gave me a discount business card for the shroom dispensary downtown!! Im stoked to go!! Yeah so PTSD is a real vibe kill and it can really bring you down til you cant move no more. You gotta find something better to do…. Well weed helps. Lol. Obviously

parasites in my intestines

You know that old nursery rhyme, well maybe pass nursery,kindergarten, that goes: nobody likes me everybody hates me I'm going to eat some worms short fat stubby ones itsy bitsy teeny ones swiggly Wiggly funny little worms, well turns out nobody liked me and I did eat some worms, so I'm going to get dewormed today! At least I think it's worms. I read up about it and I totally grossed myself out because I looked at pictures. Did you know that you're supposed to get dewormed once a year? I didn't and I failed to get all my vaccinations up to date. I used to go to this walk-in family clinic on college but after I got really sick and my doctor said nothing despite me going multiple times in a mild panic with a vague questioning regarding my health, I don't want to go back there. I always felt that that doctor thought I had a crush on him or was coming on to him. It was kind of gross because I really needed help from a doctor but I didn't know he was just a doctor for show signing on to the ohip form of whatever I was trying to do at the doctor so we could collect his 200 and go directly past jail but actually he should have gone directly to jail. Just kidding. At the very least he didn't have to get a specialized license plate. Because I saw a car with his last name as a license plate and I wanted to scratch his car with my keys. What a douchebag assuming that I was there for show. Here's a tip for the future Nicole, next time you think a center is run by a bunch of Muslim men, don't use their doctor. I must have wasted about 5 years going to that doctor and not getting a single diagnosis or test requested regarding my multiple symptoms of malady. Because the excuse of having bad hygiene was too convenient for everyone without understanding what lifelong trauma exacerbated by current reoccurring traumatic events manipulated by a third party, or heck even face to face, will do to a woman like me who wanted to do something else. So yeah I'm super traumatized because I was forced to eat dirt off oily plates because those black guys were the filthiest m************ mother Ducker s for not only were they actually physically filthy, using my plates after asking them not to, leaving oily traces all over them, leaving disgusting scum and they're disgusting pubic hairs all over the bathroom after every time I would wash it wipe it clean it, they were also mentally toxic, emotionally terrifying, obviously manipulative, and quite frankly they were scary men, maladjusted, emotionally charged, consistent in strawman arguments, and rather unpredictable with out knowing who they were they just seemed unstable and potentially physically violent, which they proved. The level of disgust and filth that I felt and still feel I need to wash off me as they pawed me the entire time, is unbearably high. Considering I never met these men, nor would I ever want to, the amount of damage, emotional, mental, physical damage that they did, plus all the theft, and destruction of my personal belongings, I really want to see them hurt badly in return. I don't want to spend too much energy thinking about it because I spent all of my energy recovering from their psychological attacks. I would never recommend living with them I wouldn't even recommend speaking with them because in doing so you will taint your soul, and your spirit will get soiled, and not a good kind of soil but the gross soil that you scrape off a Spadina Kensington market fish stall corner. The level of fake these men employ only speaks of how little they actually know. They had nothing to tell me except for their perverted eyes pleading murder. I didn't want to be in their presence whatsoever and the whole time I could hear and feel them continuously approach my bedroom and hover at my door. They had a disgusting air about them, a haughty arrogance that reeked of slander. I never met men who were so uneducated and Ill experienced to make me fear my life until I met the two black guys and the redhead who moved in a few months before they maliciously locked me out.

Anyway I'm getting dewormed today and I suggest you do the same. I believe it's just a series of tablets.

MAGIC MUSHROOMS GONNA BE APPROVED FOR GENERAL POPULATION SOON

 AND I QUOTE: "Oral psilocybin is showing itself to be clinically efficacious by producing statistically significant reductions in depression and anxiety symptoms over time versus control in multiple clinical trials. It has also been shown to reduce cigarettes per day and drinks per day in patients with substance use disorders. Thus far, there have been no significant adverse clinical events from psilocybin and there also have been no verifiable recorded deaths reported. Larger studies need to be performed before the drug can potentially become approved for use in the general population."

Hodge AT, Sukpraprut-Braaten S, Narlesky M, Strayhan RC. The Use of Psilocybin in the Treatment of Psychiatric Disorders with Attention to Relative Safety Profile: A Systematic Review. J Psychoactive Drugs. 2022 Feb 28:1-11. doi: 10.1080/02791072.2022.2044096. Epub ahead of print. PMID: 35225726.