on todays menu... stabby!

 today im going to make something but i dont know what.  the market is in 3 days.

maybe more pouches. i have this super cute "france tourism" fabric i dont know how to use. its got pictures , drawings and fundamentalist colourful, of france scenes: little scooter, eiffel tower, cute side streets, i think theres a poodle in there... ill post a pic from my phone:

i wanted to quilt it but i dont know how to add the other shapes around it. what shapes. where.

oh i just remembered these already made project panels i bought. yay im going to use them. theres 4 of these placemat projects but im going to make it a pouch with an outside pocket:

also just bought an $18 bag of quilt batting 45x60 inches or so arriving tomorrow thanks to amazon. kind of expensive for a small piece it is polyester. i read all the cotton reviews and i just gave up. it looks like most come apart when washed and you have a lump of cotton between the unquilted portions . i was thinking i should use instacart more if im lazy. i have to go to the dufferin fabricland before it shuts down for good everything is on discount clearance. they opened one on yonge and bloor which is so convenient so that dufferin one is closing. anyway that dufferin on transit is a bus ride and walking but its by highways in a really uncomfortable manner. busy highways, so uncomfortable to walk by. i dont have a car so i never go to the locations that are super far unless i live near them somehow like the dufferin one i was living in north york at the time.... those landlords havent paid me back yet. did you read about twitter having to sue the ADL some jewish defamation league, for defamation, on twitter? like wow guys these jewish people are getting way out of control if they want to remain as a whole person, just one jewish, just jew, they really need to step it up. like my old landlord is super uber jewish with 11 children im not sure if they were like amish people or something but they were like amish people or something totally lying through the skin of their teeth nodding their heads ..... in the end they refuse to return my damage deposit after threatening me so many fucking times about smoking inside the house and i wasnt smoking pot in the house whatsoever like one time i even tested it and knew those fucking kids were right at my door spying on me, depressing me, harassing me, i busted up, loudly, the stankiest weed i had bought in a while to ROLL a joint and i could hear them giddily gobbling up a single terp, one molecule of cannabinoid in their delicate spying little fucking noses... could literally hear them giggling and saying thats def weed lol, fucking annoying brady bunch looking all uniform wearing little fuckers.... constantly running up around forcing the little ones to stomp on top of my entire apartment when parents were not home, just miserable fucking children with nothing to do when at home, like honestly and vacuuming right first thing the girls would do in the morning after getting ready for their boring ass days ffs..... yeah i felt fucing tortured in the freezing cold basement with a broken kitchen window and sticky walls that pat and i painted first fucking thing he did, ew the walls in the kitchen were repulsive, only 1,300 i says though the laundry was 4 blocks away easy,  carpeted too with the most hideous flooring in the main room, all beige and browns and streaky looking and not shiny. just ew.  in the end they steal my last months rent because he demanded me to pay rent the month i was moving out and i gave them enough notice, they were fucking horrible traumatizing fucks that didnt pay me back, he demanded i pay rent on the last month i stayed, and i had painted the kitchen and one side of the main room. i also detail cleaned the bathroom and mopped the dingy cough inducing mildewey carpeted walls. and also detail cleaned the black mold on the venetian blind in the entrance window, which was completely filthy. as if i dont charge myself for what i do. i had to live there. their place from the looks of it, was meticulous. not sure why or how their rental was so affordable in comparison to the rest? hmm. with the money they stole they could have bought me a washer dryer and another month would have paid for carpet removal and linoleum or double paned windows, just no as if that plus what they did to me was what i deserved plus forcing me to pay a months rent on the month i was to leave, so what the fuck did i pay the damage deposit for? these fucking people thought it was ok, after literally renting the place with a fucking social worker explaining my condition and trauma regarding theft with a well written letter, plus albion housings crew coming to explain and get the lease etc holy fucking shit i even had the ministry of housing pay them directly, to which they did and accidentally over paid them because of how the housing costs are doled out by agency or department and not a the lump sum oh just fucking no. incredible trauma from these people like why show me your whole fam and say youre this without telling me you were like super poor . well i guess this is what i understood. but yo i asked the guy the landlord if they were ok for moneey- because he had my damage and no word of a lie said not a single word to me about the fucking gorgeous paint job pat did in that god awful kitchen, an indication of pure fuckery coming....... ugh so where was i, at a loss of $1,548 by the hands of a large fundamentalist jewish family of 11.... blatant thieves i felt my human rights were being flagrantly violated, bullied by children and stigmatized by adults about pot smoking is not what you want in a basement suite with no laundry in the middle of nowhere and a highway to cross daily.  

yeah so what am i going to make today. i hope something that makes me some money!!  ooooh maybe ill make stabby, my stuffed aromatherapy knife.  you just drip essential oils onto it and it smells good while you stab away at stuff! yeah! i wonder if i can use the black and white gingham for the knife part... what about the handle just plain black? i have polka dots but i think it would be too busy and both non black. yeah totally gonna make stabby today. been thinking about this project for a while.

today im smoking on maple pancakes by potluck. tastes just like original haze! yummy! got it at the ocs for like 40 a quarter so worth it though the convenience and its packaged cleanly no animal hairs.... 

OCS STRAINS

 man whittling down my ocs order is a problem i wish i didnt have. this is a great time to try the classics and hybrids that they have up. the basics afghani and hindu kush, diesel, pink kush, rockstar, 24 gold (one of my fave oranges along with acapulco), uk cheese, grapefruit x gorilla glue 4, chem og, mazar i sherif (or is it just mazer?), pink grapefruit haze (yes!) they got a jack on wholesale, and i want to try the white shark, subway scientist (this was too expenive when i first saw it in the green room on spadina), theres also a durga mata, alien dawg, something called orange apricot, and the lemons for sure, a lemon dory, lemon z, and a lemon skunk...as im still on the search for that excellent ohio "lemon" i was blessed to try once. they even have a kali mist now but how will any ever compare to the one i got from mark with a van damn that kali mist was pure driven snow fluffy and sweetly floral that filled that night at kensingtons white rooms almost steamy gathering for basils performance of repeatedly crashing into a wall until he broke through, and the flavour was anything but burnt so i passed on adding it to my ridicuously over full bag but if there was one or two grams of each i would try them all, better yet no limit and i didnt have to pay rent..... meanwhile fuckin hell again it feels like fake film background collection of the third party privacy invasion and theft need investigation into the reasons why nicole is crying HARASSMENT!!!!!!!!!!! hence the ocs order.... fantasy order...??? i havvent whittled at all nor even gone through th entire menu. jeez! better thing to do right now would be repainting my badly painted toe nail? going on a bike ride to take my medication?/ i got diagnosed add but i think im more hyper cos its moody based on trauma memories and company for inspiration for maintaining a creative and mobile space as in mobile in the sense that you can use it with ease and are comfortable your work is safe there. my quilted stolen pouches fom the davenport shelter and sistering? fucking hate that and how they stole prfumes someone ordered online and put them in my tent again hile i was sleping in my tent later that day? ugh just gross and very uncomfortable two years of for dd homelessness and stigmatization because of my lifestyle choices and landlords perceptions of what is morally good or congruent with their lifestyle and survival behaviours and outward social expressions, like honsstly gfy right? anyway i might try the ...oh fuck it i dont know what to try out from the ocs. someone offered blue dream haze but i dont like the sleepy ones cos i like to have done many things throughout the day so i feel personally accomplished toward my life goals. unfortunally when i smoke a sleepy weed i feel like i dont want to do organizing and cleaning so i dont get to use my small expensive room (the landlords bullied and bossed me around into letting them take my stuff i hadnt moved in yet and put it in the garden and other indoor  closet. the next day it rained for two days and i dispared) so i should go take my add meds but because some witch decideed theyre the patients executive function, i have to take the capsuls open, just balls, which is gag inducing me into a further stigmatized hell then i cant get ready because my room seems too messy. sighing also im super hungry and theres nothing but plain rice and capers and tuna. should i eat that? i dont know. i guess ill smoke another joint and see. its  alled algonquin park and im not sure of its genetics but i like its lighter fluffy leaf structured flowers as opposed to the denser more purply ones.