to wax all his hair off with pine rosin

i had this HORRIBLE weird daydream vision
but maybe it was PORN driven
about darryl and his “mother” coming
to visit me in the woods (behind that parking lot)
it was that it wasnt his mother but rather the woman he used to take care of when
he had a good job, she has two kids but then he lost his job
and got on meth and she kept on with him cos of the MONEY
and hes been looking around for a REPLACEMENT
so thats why HE INTRODUCED ME TO HIS MOTHER
ohhhh FOR FUCKS SAKE
im internally howling
so the porno goes linda comes into the campsite and darryl is acting really weird
and fussy about it all and
YOU CAN FIGURE IT OUT FROM THERE
just because she doesnt look much older than me and darryl said he was my age
the other maybe TABOO PORN twink shit would be
darryl is a 23 year old GAY VIRGIN and his mother wanted to MEET THE FIRST WOMAN HE WAS GOING TO DETHROWN (cos he told me to come threw)
so im not sure who is PHISHING SCAMMING ME WITH FAKE JOBS AND FAKE CHECKS
trying to get me in trouble with the LAW again
AGAIN AS USUAL
I THINK ITS STEVE POLYCHRONOPOLOUS THE ADAM SANDLER CHARACTER
NOT MY BASTARD LANDLORD
so i have to email that cute cop…
DO NOT GET ME STARTED ON THE PORNO I IMAGINED
and this is why I GET IN TROUBLE
everyone wants to HEAR ABOUT THE STORY
omg im DYING
honestly i shouldve gotten the meat lasagna option
WHY DO WE HAVE TO CHOOSE
I WANT VEG AND MEAT
IN ONE LASAGNA

i have a semblance of a recipe for the perfume i made darryl
CUSTOM MADE IT OVER DOSED IT WITH GUAICWOOD AND BLACK AGAR
and i didnt KEEP A SAMPLE NOW HES GONE FRAUDING HIS NEXT TRAGEDY
im so forlorn i honestly believed in his verve
and i DONT actually do that, fall for anyones verve BECAUSE THEY DONT HAVE ANY so im PISSED
ugh.
i want to do like physical things to him, in retaliation
BUT CONSENT WTFim mad
its not fair i would tie him up and slap the shit out of him
and wax his all his hair
WITH PINE ROSIN
not even honey,
obviously
MAYBE USE BEESWAX
honestly.
its not fair.

Back in Canada!

Well, my trip was a freakin DISASTER

My brother almost killed me, then my dad decided to lock me up in a mental ward for 6 weeks over Christmas and New Year, then he had me personally escorted to a rehab in Thailand where I anguished for a month until my escape back to Manila to my uncles house. And I almost didnt make it to my uncles house because my entire family that never talks to me decided to tell my uncles family to not help me. WTF so long story short I am an orphan and glad to be so. My uncle and aunt are now my new parents. Just wow. Totally terrible trip. The good parts were because I made them up to be good. But I love my aunt and uncle way more now that I know them much better.
So I'm not really sure what happened there and I honestly can't care because it will just further drag me down. That trip left a terrible taste in my mouth regarding my immediate family and no amount of gargling will wash it out.
I basically had no chance to heal from my trauma, gained More Trauma, no chance or time or space to get my businesses started, my dad decided to spend all the money he promised to help me with to institutionalize me? I'm pretty disgusted with them really. Really abusive. I come from a highly physically and emotionally abusive background and thought that part of my life with my family was over...but boy was I wrong. I doubt I'll be going back to Manila anytime soon, and definitely not without my own money. I went with no money so my dad had full control of me...I just wasn't expected to be blindsided like that. When you haven't been "home" in a decade, and your father says "I'll take care of you, just come home", the last thing you expect is getting locked up in a mental institution over the Christmas holidays, then get blamed for all the expense, then get zero financial help when you stand up for yourself. Disgusting man, really. So I am just trying to manage my mental health from my newest, freshest traumas.

Meanwhile, I'll be posting up a bunch of stuff to sell off, supplies, and I will start making stuff again. I realize handmade and local designers and artisans are on the down, I looked it up, but I will still put my stuff out there in case someone else falls in love with a design and wants to make it theirs.