Well, my trip was a freakin DISASTER
My brother almost killed me, then my dad decided to lock me up in a mental ward for 6 weeks over Christmas and New Year, then he had me personally escorted to a rehab in Thailand where I anguished for a month until my escape back to Manila to my uncles house. And I almost didnt make it to my uncles house because my entire family that never talks to me decided to tell my uncles family to not help me. WTF so long story short I am an orphan and glad to be so. My uncle and aunt are now my new parents. Just wow. Totally terrible trip. The good parts were because I made them up to be good. But I love my aunt and uncle way more now that I know them much better.
So I'm not really sure what happened there and I honestly can't care because it will just further drag me down. That trip left a terrible taste in my mouth regarding my immediate family and no amount of gargling will wash it out.
I basically had no chance to heal from my trauma, gained More Trauma, no chance or time or space to get my businesses started, my dad decided to spend all the money he promised to help me with to institutionalize me? I'm pretty disgusted with them really. Really abusive. I come from a highly physically and emotionally abusive background and thought that part of my life with my family was over...but boy was I wrong. I doubt I'll be going back to Manila anytime soon, and definitely not without my own money. I went with no money so my dad had full control of me...I just wasn't expected to be blindsided like that. When you haven't been "home" in a decade, and your father says "I'll take care of you, just come home", the last thing you expect is getting locked up in a mental institution over the Christmas holidays, then get blamed for all the expense, then get zero financial help when you stand up for yourself. Disgusting man, really. So I am just trying to manage my mental health from my newest, freshest traumas.
Meanwhile, I'll be posting up a bunch of stuff to sell off, supplies, and I will start making stuff again. I realize handmade and local designers and artisans are on the down, I looked it up, but I will still put my stuff out there in case someone else falls in love with a design and wants to make it theirs.
My brother almost killed me, then my dad decided to lock me up in a mental ward for 6 weeks over Christmas and New Year, then he had me personally escorted to a rehab in Thailand where I anguished for a month until my escape back to Manila to my uncles house. And I almost didnt make it to my uncles house because my entire family that never talks to me decided to tell my uncles family to not help me. WTF so long story short I am an orphan and glad to be so. My uncle and aunt are now my new parents. Just wow. Totally terrible trip. The good parts were because I made them up to be good. But I love my aunt and uncle way more now that I know them much better.
So I'm not really sure what happened there and I honestly can't care because it will just further drag me down. That trip left a terrible taste in my mouth regarding my immediate family and no amount of gargling will wash it out.
I basically had no chance to heal from my trauma, gained More Trauma, no chance or time or space to get my businesses started, my dad decided to spend all the money he promised to help me with to institutionalize me? I'm pretty disgusted with them really. Really abusive. I come from a highly physically and emotionally abusive background and thought that part of my life with my family was over...but boy was I wrong. I doubt I'll be going back to Manila anytime soon, and definitely not without my own money. I went with no money so my dad had full control of me...I just wasn't expected to be blindsided like that. When you haven't been "home" in a decade, and your father says "I'll take care of you, just come home", the last thing you expect is getting locked up in a mental institution over the Christmas holidays, then get blamed for all the expense, then get zero financial help when you stand up for yourself. Disgusting man, really. So I am just trying to manage my mental health from my newest, freshest traumas.
Meanwhile, I'll be posting up a bunch of stuff to sell off, supplies, and I will start making stuff again. I realize handmade and local designers and artisans are on the down, I looked it up, but I will still put my stuff out there in case someone else falls in love with a design and wants to make it theirs.
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