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today is my cancer diagnosis I'm supposed to be on the bus already and I can't even get myself together to get ready like I'm freaking out. I have to be there in 45 minutes. I have to meet my caseworker in 45 minutes and we're going to the hospital together. I have to leave like in five minutes. I have to take a shower and I have to leave in five minutes like honestly, I'm freaking out what if my cancer is like really bad or something like I don't I don't even wanna go, but I have to. I have to go. It's diagnosis day. I'm also freaking out because I lost all my grocery money again last month. I lost all my grocery money this month I lost all my grocery money and I potentially losing all my grocery money for next month because I already have a debt from my overdraft. I'm freaking out because also play Mojo gave me a 500% bonus with no win cap holy fuck that means if I deposit $30 I get $150 but I have to wager $6000 like that's a fucking shit ton and then winz.io (wins i owe) Has this promo where they give you 150 free spins before midnight if you deposit $120 and they don't have a wagering requirement so I did consider this but then I asked the iching what would happen if I took the winz io offer and it gave me a straight 12 so i high tailed out of there and asked if i take the play mojo offer and the fucker gave me 10 to 8 !!!!!! so now i dont know the play mojo is just 30 bucks............ well fuck me porkchop, play mojo just self excluded me FOR NO REASON WHATSOEVER after i got word from the landlord that I have been Over paying him rent and he is coming with cash tomorrow. i was so excited to try to wager there i was gonna use my vpn and go slow and everything!!!! argh the insulting part was how little they said about it. and I think I know why I actually wrote them earlier because I read their bonus email which also had some free spins included but a previous email had granted me 23 spins which I went and took immediately and spun it this morning so when I wrote them an email, I replied to the bonus and said I think I'm being collected on and I'm just straight losing. I don't think I'll be able to complete the wager but I want to try it blah blah blah stuff like that that's what I wrote basically touching base with them thanking them for the bonus and also talking about the straight lose from the free spins now, I sent that email. I just hit reply and reply to it and then I replied again when I came back from St Stephens and I learned that I have been overpaying my landlord. It was only when I got home. That I realized both of those emails were returned and I was replying to a no reply email. Whoops so actually play Mojo never heard anything from me. But they have already restricted me. I only realize now but what I think happened is somebody on one of their teams are affiliates is spying in my email. They have hacked my email and are reading all of them or they have managed to have access to my phone for example the other night I was at home and somebody used my shake pay card. How is that possible? The shake pay card is only in your phone but anyway, as I'm saying, hopefully somebody like the police will pick this up I'm pretty sure play. Mojo had read the email without understanding or without reading why it bounced back. And that's why they did the self exclusion thing. I'm not sure though I think also maybe it was I wrote back to the free spins email anyway they put a self restriction on my account and I told them fuck off. Fuck you and fuck that. I told them to delete the account but to remove the self exclusion first because I don't want that on my record or on my account. I already have a hard time playing in Ontario regulated sites because of identity theft in ontario. That's why I play on foreign sites with this grouping of providers, because i cant play on ontario regulated igaming sites- mostly i have issues just logging in using pak_pak. but fallsview had a different story that theres one with my name and identity with one kid and they wont let me play there with my id's accroding to their crap third party verifier im not me so i cant play at niagara fallsview online, or some ontario casinos just dont let me play or are kind of mean or rough to me before even playing, or the marketing agency collects money from me instead of winning money, they compete for the "win" so i only lose -money AND the endorphins/euphoria from the actual win that the operator steals from me, but the foreign ones i play on and also ontario ones self exclude me all the time these days ive been losing only, or they stigmatize me because of my name or email, or because i talk to myself and to archetypes when im playing or getting high etc- because they are spying too closely and don't like me etc the amount of ew i get for just being at home is huge. im not even gross but my phone is pointed at my coffee table which isnt clean nor do they use so they judge you and transmit that energy directly to you without you seeing them or knowing they are there (this is what third parties can end up doing to you, the unprofessional ones will tend to do this, or they will talk to you live and directly while you are doing or saying what youre doing and saying. they respond and youre like what was i just thinking? did i think that? did someone say that? you look around theres no one there? youre on your phone alone... nahhhhhh thats likely an unprofessional third party researcher or marketer spying on you and talking to you while they do so knowing they have no microphne... but quantum theory tells us otherwise. yeah.. dont doubt it. its always a little birdie told you right? theyre called quarks and they transmit by half spins. anyway yeah fuck that forced and imposed self exclusion shit just delete and erase dont bother trying to damage someone with your u derstanding. what understanding? isnt english your third or fourth language?????? i cant relay myself formally to an online casino, sorry, i just cant. lol. yep. ok this is my LAST REAL TALK UPDATE STOP COMING AT ME AND TALKING TO ME DIRECTLY there are like always like 15 voices all mumbling something incoherent to me all the time wtf. i have a theory on this too. our data handlers might be delaying actual real world connections we have with people by faking profiled individuals and faking timing of planted events etc. third parties taking our real life connections words and putting it in their mouth to tell you is AGAINST OUR HUMAN RIGHTS TO LIVE IN DIGNITY THE END OF THIRD PARTYISM SOCIAL ENGINEERING WILL HAPPEN IN MY LIFETIME LETS ADVOCATE FOR IT ALONGSIDE LSD FOR MAID ok bye toodles take care ttyl