leaving

i think im leaving the hospital today. still got a tube in but i have a new roommate and i cannot be in the same room without having a serious adverse reaction to her because she is so sick and it makes me feel super ill. so the doctors might let me go home instead. yay. im just waiting for my medication at the pharmacy seriously the hell away from staying in my room. gak. i got nightmares from her and her doctor team coming in at 5 am talking loud and non stop it caused me a nightmare that i fell back into three more times. so yeah no fucking way can i stay. i hope the tube comes out before i go but it might have to stay in and a nurse will take it out later.

new cancer over update

it's the 29th now and I'm still in the hospital. I feel so much better now that all this cancer stuff is gone and they took out one of the drain fluid tubes. If the next drain fluid tube shows less than 30 cc they will remove it as well and I can go home. I still have a huge cash on my neck, but my joker smile is now for life. Don't fuck with me, lol patrice said I was made of stainless steel and I kind of believe him. I was really mad at first because I lost my voice, but I think it's gonna get better eventually or I'll just get used to having no voice I kind of sound like Marlon Brando or something or I kind of just sound like me after yelling at somebody for a really extended period of time. I feel pretty badly about how I initially reacted to my doctor. She got really mad and I never seen her again. I hope she forgives me but then again I haven't seen her so I don't know if she will. I told my mom the other day but she didn't reply so I just kind of feel stupid even bringing it up all that said I do feel a bit tired and I can't really do that much like in the ways of walking or doing stuff because I get winded. I'm sure eventually I'll get regained my strength and I'll be back up and running a no time.

thyroid cancer

well i wish i said no. i should have said no and just succumbed to thyroid cancer because now i have no voice and cant talk anymore. what a huge loss considering how much i loved talking to myself when alone.now i have no company and ill be so lonely. i hate it. anyway here are some pics of me now.

yeah so i mean why did i have to lose my voice fucking assholes i hate everyone now i have no voice i sound stupid