leaving

i think im leaving the hospital today. still got a tube in but i have a new roommate and i cannot be in the same room without having a serious adverse reaction to her because she is so sick and it makes me feel super ill. so the doctors might let me go home instead. yay. im just waiting for my medication at the pharmacy seriously the hell away from staying in my room. gak. i got nightmares from her and her doctor team coming in at 5 am talking loud and non stop it caused me a nightmare that i fell back into three more times. so yeah no fucking way can i stay. i hope the tube comes out before i go but it might have to stay in and a nurse will take it out later.

thyroid cancer

well i wish i said no. i should have said no and just succumbed to thyroid cancer because now i have no voice and cant talk anymore. what a huge loss considering how much i loved talking to myself when alone.now i have no company and ill be so lonely. i hate it. anyway here are some pics of me now.

yeah so i mean why did i have to lose my voice fucking assholes i hate everyone now i have no voice i sound stupid