people laughing all day all night it makes me physically sick i get panicked and sick to my stomach i hear them the guffaws the kuns the seans the exboyfriends the thieves the people coming into my apartment the stalkers the creeps the flaggers the hacks the fake the family the so called i know hers the so called friends all of the people i met and came across that i have zero communication with- i never talk to these people and for good reason and these people would never talk with me they all spoke down at me and worse i constantly hear their demands on what i should be doing or regrets that i didnt do something else than what i just did so basically it makes me want to be a murderer and massacre everyone. but i dont dwell on that thought too much because i wouldnt know how to do it. thats all. otherwise i need a friend to banter it back with. i am hearing nasty filipino men cackles stealing my intellectual property and get away with it. they have gotten away with robbing me of EVERYTHING I PUT OUT and leave me to pay their bills too. i want to be a murderer. i really really do want to murder these evil gross fake unhuman violent offenders and theives. but i dont know how.