bored

​so boring there is no one around super bored 

Caught a bunch if people still laughing at me punctuating every little thing i do online it was super exhausting as usual. I get so tired just fighting off the bad vibes of feeling laughed at for no reason, specially right when i find super cool interesting shit. Its been over a decade since i met anyone smart or even fun or interesting. Its like i was sold to gross people who use and abuse me everyday constantly provoking me and isolating me. I hate it here now and just want to die already so sick if every interaction being something bad a stranger does to me randomly. It isnt random when they walk up to you one at a time and profile harass you. Im so sick of it. Lame ass cops never did  anything to help me ever not even when i was beaten by a man and none of the people i know these days are even vaguely interested in a single thing i say or do, mostly theyre just laughing at me too or ignoring anything i say with a dismissive bored nod. Everyone lies to me too. Like everything patrice says is a lie and he just insults me im so sick of it. It pisses me off that i never got to stabilize in a shelter before moving into a place. In fact every single shelter abused me and robbed me of all my clithes, they stole my celphone too even my fuckin underwear and kicked me out on christmas eve and shit like that. Im just so weary and exhausted feeling this way and having to relate to people like this who just insult me to my face without even understanding who i am as a person just straight ignoring thT and asserting this image they have of me on me. Im not like that so mostly im just cringing and squirming in humiliated discomfort im so fucking sick of it. Im not even mean or a bitch or nothing like that but i feel people treat me so badly. Im so sick of sharing my ideas to a huge vacuum void where i got not a single person reading anything i say. It always feels like theft this way. Plus how patrice isolates and abuses me combined with how belittling most condescend. I totally hate the past decade im so exhausted from only being put down. I dont want to share a single thought ever again no one cares except creepy atalkers i dont like anyway.

 Heres the spiky thing i found in my ear after vacuuming it. Gross huh. Looks like toronto left me here again and is amalgamating with some other city probably san fransisco and seattle. I did notice the bank of america closing up all their branches and even the san fransisco international airport. Kind of sad about that. I never gor to go back to san fransisco and explore it. I only was there as a very small child with my family.

Anyway i hope to god this thing isnt permanent. I cant even see it but for all i know everyone else can. Oh yeah hi nicole by the way there is this really long clear worm coming out if your ear… yeah no one will ever likely say that to save my life.