​got nothing going on today not much to report probably because I’m in a bad mood I’m trying to fix that by smoking another GMO joint you know garlic mushroom onion the original one mind you not the subsequent fake ones apparently I got it at medicine wheel top shelf smells like a motherfucker works really well meanwhile Ryan‘s younger brother Kyle is coming to the rave on the 13th with Vlad and me and Balmes and Balmes is bringing her friend I’ve never met Kyle before so I’m really looking forward to meeting Ryan‘s younger brother because ryan talked about them incessantly always up talking his brother talking about Kyle about this and about that always miss seeing you know I have a brother right he’s gay you know that right you know I got a brother gay brother named Kyle right always say that stuff like that over and over again. Ryan died though he died a few years ago maybe I don’t know a couple I heard from his friend John John works at a resort somewhere out in BC now and that was the last friend of ryan that I knew in town except jaine who i havent seen I met ryan when I was still living in Parkdale he sold me hash many years before we remet i cant remember the second reason now we worked together for a bit running around crashing into each other on the ttc got to go on my way out see ya later and we would meet up and count our pitiful sums…. Start of a great fucked up friendship. Ryan took me and jaine to that middle of nowhere festival in quebec where some people died i got so high couldnt even find my way out of the entrances or somewhere lots of fun but i didnt come prepared had no idea there was NO FOOD OR WATER or even a bathroom the bracelet kept getting smaller on my wrist i had to cut it off i rode with jaine on her scooter  forever and with her data we found a store and bought some stuff but i wasnt thinking and that was fucked i remember on sunday because ryan said we were going home on sunday i counted the nights and had to count them so high come sunday i freaked out and was just yelling ryan said were going home on sunday today is sunday were going home over and over again until ryan drove me and a bunch of other people back that night he drove back and righteously so ryan was one of the craziest motherfuckers i ever had the pleasure to get to know…. Then when i got back alex called me cos he was building a deck