there are so many things i want to and need to do online and in life syncing the two i can barely manage what id be doing it for if i wanted to try forming new clouds or how to make smaller clouds that wont crash and create a storm like what we have today. its not actually stormy per se but the colour of the day was a blurky ochre tinted cold grey, but it wasn't thaaat cold so there was a chance of success for the thirstiest ]hey did you know anything about the convention center and lift expo i failed to notice it was on all year or is it i mean on every year i just didnt notice that.

im trying to not feel numb after all the love heisting and looting after sex darryl had done but i cant manage as i think he stole my visa card last i seen him too. im beyond weary and i think patrice was crying about it. lol. just kidding. i think theyre prolly laughing at me honestly. i just dont feel good after all the looting and loss. i just feel numb and await the next dreary theft of my time effort in life and of course for the sake of my reinstalled insanity. all my celphones since 2012 were stolen plus all the other phones and devices, my 1 oz gold coin, two 1 oz silver coins, the froggy pouch tita amelia gave me before she died last year it had a vintage padlock on it i have the key, the vuse vape porkchop gave me, the earphones patrice bought that he thought didnt work but did cos i tried them, he stole my torch, and what else. im so exhausted and he stole my visa card while we were hanging out and bought beer and then bought a bunch of other stuff after taking off while we were walking. like ew. right just slime i feel sick now thinking about it of course the cops dont help me i tried writing a report and will try to write another one i have to file a human rights claim against these men in this house i think theyre all squatters harassing me im not sure lol dont really care i have to leave soon theyve escallated so much i lost half of my belongings im so tired and physically my body has aged and is very weary my back my lower back sciatica scoliosis and balance problem hard to manage i cant make anything in such a tiny room with so many gross kun attacks against me something to do with my brother who almost murdered me and i had to spend 6 weeks in a hell hole in manila i am YUCK NOOOOOOOO fucking got to GO