The other gross thing is they come from upstairs to shower here in the bathroom I rarely clean because so many people use it and they charge in right when I'm going to. Like now I needed a hot shower but someone came from upstairs to shower, someone laughing at me all night. I have a splitting headache from the occilating vibration of the fan downstairs or upstairs? I don't know where it is but it's loud and on all day night day night and it leaves me with a splitting headache everytime I notice it. The back of my head is a hot ache and I think I had a blood clot again cos the top of my head was very hot when they were laughing at me upstairs. I think it's Doris or Dora or whatever the girls name is and her weird guy Hugo or whatever his name is. Whoever's upstairs or seeming upstairs and creeping on me to thwart me make me late make me lose my momentum hot water whatever like what do they do. In real life. Whatever it is, I don't want them doing it.

Another thing they did the black guy or someone in his harassment crew, put my two chairs outside. So 4 of my chairs are outside because these people wanted to destroy more of my stuff. It's actually expensive, chairs. They terrorized me and put a bunch more shit in the kitchen and they put my beautiful chairs outside again. I had just cleaned the black tulip one that's like a bar stool or salon chair and the wooden one I rolled here from I don't know. I'm super sick of these people disrespecting me and degrading me and violating my human rights and getting black men to threaten me in front of my room door and getting that Indian guy to push me out of the bathroom and the other black guy punched me after stealing my stuff probably every night. I fuxkin hate how people are so fuxking mean to me and force me to be nice and kind to the ugliest more rude and gross men who are in my room and lying about it. It makes me feel gross and I have a lot of ideas I need to finish before I can move cos it's a lot of fucking work moving out of the way of a swarm of people raping you hitting you suffocating you it's scary and it's making me weak and leave all my real interests behind and I never get to collect anything anymore or enjoy anything cos I'm always have to be by myself cos it's safer than being forced by some fake friend to be nice to them. I get threatened almost everytime I think I have a friend to go hang out with or do city stuff with. Almost every single time I'm only cut down and I'm so tired already of having to be nice or else... Like for example the black guy who threatened me in front of my room called the police. And the police was getting mad I didn't want to let them threaten me too. I call the police after getting severely beaten and these immigrants gang up on me and get the police to put me in CAMH and tie me to the bed repeatedly and mask me to suffocate me because I said I have breathing problems. Then at CAMH they injected me with some white stuff. I don't know what it was. Because of these people that make money laughing at me or whatever raping me o abusing my privacy my space my belongings my developer credentials my creative mapping things I find my iPhone I'm super broken and of course no weed. NO WEED I can't find anywhere that I'm not feeling like a target. Like obviously I can't buy weed at c.a.f.e. now because the front desk staff wanted to abuse me and she did so many times I don't even know her and forcing me to wear a mask and refusing me bud. I hate people who do shit like that to me. I did everything I could to bring weed awareness here and everywhere I went.  I did my whole life to stuff that I thought would make a difference and all I got for it was raped more beaten up all my clothes stolen made homeless for two years and more stuff got stolen when I found this spot and then it got so much worse I'm sick of sharing my mind, my ideas, my effort at maintaining my life and everything in it. I don't get to enjoy my stuff, there's no space and I became a target for homeless people and drop-in and shelter staff. I'm so tired of this group of people I don't know how to reform a cloud or two because After  something happened when I put two of my clouds together. And I'm still suffering everyday and everynight because of that. I'm chased around and I just do not feel good or safe because of gossip and slander and i never felt so rejected by people I don't even care for. I was rejected my entire life for having lack of childhood guidance and these became health issues and I have serious trauma from people bad mouthing me to others for 43 years? Something like that all the people I met just lying to my face and gagging. I just don't do the same and wish anyone had told me I was dying of thrombosis and decaying flesh inside my face.  After all that only to get laughed at and made to use a gross used totally flooded and wet bathroom makes me sick and I'm getting depressed and wish I die today. There's nothing out there anyway nor is it even worth it anyway. I hate talking with people now. No one cares about what I have to share and they only force me to be nice to them while they talk to me in a rude and bossy manner. I hate it here and what happened to me. I would die today if I could.