I'm going to try to cheer up and think of how much better everyone will be after all the prohibitions and stigmatization are identified so people can feel less anxious. But also I hope after more people smoke weed worldwide and get their vibration to a certain level then thy can carry those who's vibration is lower an dull. I lost so much time and life after struggling to keep it   for this long. Even though most people in my past might have been fake or backstabbers it was my only start and I can't regain those missed friendships. There's a lot I could go back to and have to put the time aside to do that. Lots of my craft contact I still have their cards and all the cannabis industry contacts business cards too. I just don't have my linked in anymore cos the cloud thing was super hard in real life. There was something weird going on upstairs and I wonder if I live in takeshis castle or a ancient cave den of theives. Kind of scared to go use the washroom to bathe now I have a feeling it's gonna be all sloppy seconds and flooded soaked bathmat and weird lumpy clogglys  drain. Ill wait. I should have gone in there right away. But I haven't cleaned anything in a long while now and none of these people clean so it's super scummy and I'm getting gaggy. I hope to find weed today cos I'm super down and it's just trauma I go through when I'm not spinning around thinking of what I'm looking at mapping.