MY god what a horrible day im having

i think i found my crush but i dont think he gave me his real name and im not even sure if its him i found

so i guess ill just continue my shitty life of being a stomped on slug doused with salt

aiiieeeee squiggling that stings!

cos like why is my situation so dire all the time until i freak out a lot then all the creepy inhumane interactions i have to live through stop? 

why do people treat me like this ? :( 

i never got anything back from owen or anyone else who stole anything from me. i havent even gotten to file any police reports. it makes me sick cos ive been living here for 8 months now and if you can only imagine having to use the bathroom they provided me everyday, you'd probably be dead too. i cant even shower anymore it makes me  literally sick and want to start crying. 

its so ugly and gross and it makes me sick just like the lack of maintenance here and how filthy my room was. i think they were breeding mice in here before they let me live here. of couse i still dream some price will sweep up for me but those dreams never come true. 

things i need to do are file police reports for all the missing clothes as much as i can remember for every shelter and storage incedent where they deliberately took my clothing away from me in order to steal it. now i actually dont have any clothes left whatsoever and dread having to go outside. it took me 20 years to collect all my clothes and i dont have the energy left. all these gross men have been doing is bossing me around and stealing everything i spent time and labour collecting and keeping. so many of my books and toys and belongings and clothing its unfathomable how depraved these people can twist reality to suit their discriminatory actions. im super depressed actually and dont have much energy or will left to keep constantly fighting for my right to live in a decent and well maintained environment when every single fucking person wants to treat me like some kind of worthless asshole they all bully the shit out of me and rob me and stalk me and treat me so fucking badly i dont know how much more of this ignoring nicole and keeping her at a 20 foot poles length while the nastiest men grope and gauge her. nice people i got huh.