on top of all this owen is acting like a fool, an asshole, he is literally as i type telling me he doesnt believe i was abused, again, while insisting he was abused so much. he doesnt know what i just wrote on my blog. hes just another guy that i ended up with because of my maladaptive behaviour and high tolerance for abuse. abusing me. this is my entire life. it feels like these men get off on it. they literally get off on abusing me. like i rented this place? like ive rented all the places ive been in that owen asumes he is welcome to or allowed to treat me badly in? like he will just assume he owns me and all my resources while the entire time disrespecting and demeaning me, this is autism according to him? according to him being autistic is license to abuse me? i just dont understand what i did in life to deserve any of this. like my brother tried to kill me i have stitches in the back of my head? i have trauma memories of both my parents kicking my arms cos they were covering my head? i have trauma from darryl high on meth violently attacking me, punching my head as hard as he could? the police didnt arrest him but i got arrested for punching diogo who raped me ?  ? like i simply do not understand the arrogance of these men. why is this owen man still here hw is he allowed to continually harass and antagonize and abuse me and just say he has autism so its fine? how is not held accountable for these actions? he made my life so much worse and he never leaves? no one helps me? not even this man owen who was sooooo keen on telling me he loves me over and over and over again but now all he does is disrespect and demean me for his frail and failed ego ? how can i get out of it ? i cant find anyone or anywhere ? i am wishing i was dead and i wish this man was gone gone gone gone