i didnt end up doing anything today except getting made to pay for owens groceries. lame. i wish i was alone and never met the guy. i can say that about every guy i ever met. then he pays me back and buys more crap. when he runs out of money in a few days guess who he will be stressing on? and then i smoked all the lp weed today. it was ok. better than the black crap weed. ran out of the good stuff and smoked a doob of the fake sativa again and i just felt sleepy and sluggish all day. i associate the feeling of being cheated my monthy weed medication and given the shittest weed ive ever smoked, with the drivers that have delivered it to me weed. Ew. all of them are super ew. I feel like a slug and hope to get some proper sativa with no cbd or afghani or fakeness or whatever it is the black crap sell. there is so much to do but i am still not housed because owen. he will make excuses but thats what people like him do. im so tired. so tired. i wish i was stronger. do you know how many times men made me move this year just for existing as a female? do you know? THREE TIMES its only May. Three times MEN have FORCED THEIR EGO on me, making me move my belongings and rearrange my life FOR THEIR EGO. its a miracle im still alive today..... and not dead from suicide. do you know how difficult it is for me to exist as a woman? NO. you do not. unless youre like me, and ill need proof.