well i cant really say sleep healed me, i can feel every spring of the mattress. the place came furnished and with every dated and grimy piece some emotional baggage from the landlords.
ive moved 12 times since parkdale, ive lived in 12 different places, not including the inbetweens, since the end of 2015. this is also why i had to disappear for so long, i was in so much trouble. ryan helped me move a lot but i havent seen him since last year. i ran out of money from all the moves, all the crazy filthy sketchy places i landed in, all the horrible, abusive, crazy, psycho landlords, i didnt see them as people back then and can barely see them as human now. the one landlord keith kicked me out on december 24, he was a psychopath honestly. he did not mention he was living in the livingroom, that he was renting his room out as an air bnb, he got mad at me for "not being nice to his air bnb guest" when i met her because i didnt even realize the full situation, and for using the washing machine. he even did something to the dryer for my last load before i left so it didnt dry. it was disgusting, the man was disgusting. up on davenport some failure musician slash personal trainer, he was unhealthy, miserable, lazy and dirty, the place reeked of his body odor and the kitchen was so upon close inspection, filthy. i had just been arrested for punching a roommate who had drunk-raped me, the police arrested me for punching my rapist. that case lasted a year and in the end the police withdrew their charges. fuckers. so i was pretty desperate at the time, having been locked out of my place, ryan was the only friend with a vehicle who could help me move. moved into keiths and moved out in less than a month. thats just a couple of the moves. you can imagine the rest. the chinese place above the sushi restaurant was very memorable for me, right on baldwin by kensington, i wasnt hanging out with patrice that year because we had fought about something or the other, one of those silent treatments that resolves itself with time, but the months on baldwin dominic showed up so many times, but the place was the worst, the filthiest place i had ever seen, but i cleaned i, lost my mind doing it though, watching the millenial esl asian high achiever crew and realizing the high output comes from zero input into maintaining the shared apartment. should have filed a claim but i stupidly fell for the chinese lady and her story and how hardworking they were running the restaurant below.
so yeah im pretty tired. i need to get some stuff, find a job, maintain an online shop. got so much stuff i want to put up in case someone wants it. plus the soaps i really enjoy doing, handmade in little italy sounds delightful. my tenant hearing is at the end of august for this place so im here for the summer.