ok so i was supposed to go for a bike ride but havent and should because i need food quite badly. currently was making the word necklace but only the g and h og high. in green! i want it ! i have got the settings i needed though so now i am going to try harder to use the heat gun properly...ive just been using my torch and totally wrecking the metal to be plated... sigh clops. wouldnt mind some pork chops and rice i have some ancient frozen chops from the food bank i should toss... not sure what to eat really dont got much cash well, enough for food oh i know a sushi tray from the grocery but its a bike ride im not i want to suffer before eating. maybe ill just take a shower and make pancakes and eggs cos thats all i have in the fridge to make. im also making raisins from grapes and those are in there alongside the wrong order from skip the dishes when i got a burger and what else. olives and old pepperonis,,,,

well i made a pancake and ate it while thinking the other pancake was cooking but actually the stove was turned off so now i have all this pancake batter and i dont want to eat anymore cos i already ate one. 

this weekend has been horrible first the girls bail on me and im stuck with eric bullying me all night then thomas bails and then the next day i dont hear from thomas at all and it made me feel sickened so now im really hurt by his lack of communication and he does it on purpose which is even more hurtful. i suppose im just supposed to not care but i want someone to stand up for me and slap him super hard till his fucking ears ring.