​it must be nice being part of a big family that never breaks up. I was thinking that ill get old from all these hits against me for sure. I wonder if its why people age. Patrices hair went white all at the same time in his 30s because a serious lly awful thing happened to him, he was robbed and then his passport was stolen and the guy was a crazy terrorist who wanted to blow up an airport. Nightmare. All his hair turned white at once.

Being part of a dysfunctional family that eventually broke up feels like how you think it might. After a while the kids turn into adults like me who have no good experiences with other people and in turn their lives, like mine, feel rather empty and void of happiness. It doesn't matter how joyful you make it out to be at the end of the day theres no one there for you. Getting scammed by a group of men who sounded kind of like women doesnt help🥲 just scammers using fake characters is what i find myself interacting with all the time🥲 friendships are foreign to me and in consequence i havent been able to maintain any for more than 20 years and even then i have my doubts due ro my lifelong malady and smoker lung sinus problem exacerbated by my mental issues and problems and unresolved repeated traumas concerning the men around me. Its really problematic for me always being in a bind or at risk of losing my entire household and belongings. Plus all the men ive had to deal with the past few years have been the worst men i have ever had to deal with. Its just getting worse and worse. People are so ugly these days and this last confidence scam proves it. I felt as if i was being targeted for a long while. Im scared of the internet now and just wont use social media anymore because it does nothing but harm my output. It takes away from my time and of late, money. I wish it was like before but with the amount of people now in canada, it just wont be the same ever again. I have to be specially careful with individual people of any manner of meeting because i dont have the right skills not to be hurt by people, swindled, humiliated, robbed, and the whole gamut of illegal activities that target women like me. Handmade girls all died out. At least i know i did. Now its just hyenas and those birds that eat from the dead. Vultures. Only hyenas and vultures are whats coming so i have to be very vigilant and avoid personal interactions with people that do not better my life by any means.