making new perfumes and smelling essential oils have been keeping me busy despite still being displaced by that aggressive tiny greek man last year.
oh well at this point im used to being ganged up on by guys who keep wanting to catch me doing sketchy stuff. the lengths they go into tripping me costs so much more than just housing me. but thats men for you, harassing women has become the norm and its difficult for women! but i am keeping the good fight up alive and kicking these entitled manipulations on my energy and grace! if you started noticing that men started acting aggressive towards you unless you were excessively sweet kind and nice to them, you would be scared too! specially when these men are your landlords or people who you have paid for to provide you with privacy and space. its very difficult to find peace for me these days. im not sure what happened. its very tiring and weary... i have noticed a lot of doxxing and subtle threats coming at me from all angles online and in real life. im super tired and have been trying to rest and regain confidence and motivation. also the weed ive been buying has all been from gross people who sell fake weed :( im not sure how it happens i think its just timing. better remember to go buy some weed today. my birthdays coming up and i am dreading it cos the most recent troll in my life knows where i am and im scared ill have to again spend time with someone who only takes ebergy and resources away from me without giving anything back. im scared to lose more of my energy to people who i dont know who are stalking to damage me, or lose the energy through lack of clean space. im renting a studio apartment the only available after the air bnb landlord gang ganged up on me and stole all my energy and labour and extra funds and forced me to move my stuff in and out in two weeks. i hope these men DIE! i hope they die and i hope they are forced to suffer as they keep doing to me. they gang up on me and pick on me one by one and im very tired. so tired. they all want money and they all want me to have a difficult time, and they all want me to be very uncomfortable with lots of men around me and no women, putting me at risk, showing their gross naked bodies to me, the air bnb gang was super creepy during covid no less....now they are trying to discredit me on the perfume forum where im learning. they discredit and try to damage my worth without providing any information themselves, nor do they have anything to share. i believe they do these attacks when they are stealing from me, to diffuse the theft and make me tired so i cant stand up for myself while they steal my information and concepts. it happened with the hair tonic formula. i still havent found a safe place to live and my research was stolen over the last year. some guy wiped my computer and hes still keeping tabs on me it feels very weary. i havent found anyone to help me except for guys that only want to relieve themselves. im so tired and i dont have anyone thats good around me actually its very wearisome and i am very tired. the only place i found to rest is filthy and i got sick with shigella symptoms right away in two days. filth. expensive. i feel these landlord punter gangs have done this to many many creative and intelligent women online and in real life. we do not know who they are but i have touched based with some high vibration women who have experienced the same things and cannot understand it either. thse powers that be fuck with our families, our friends, and our lovers, past and present. is it non disclosure research or ghostwriting? i think its a combination of these two. i did notice though that the only other people who experienced this were gorgeous beautiful super smart and street smart women. they are poor like me and dont have a car it feels like we are followed around and watched and then we are played street theatre to or we "find things" in our paths that are extremely useful and timely like i just lost my phone then i find a phone right beside me the next day etc.. so its not that safe and its scary and its a lot of pressure on beautiful women. most of the ones i touched base with are not even interested in fame or being known, they just want to do their thing and mind their own business.
also i invested half a year into owen but he is autistic so actually what i did was waste half a year deluding myself that he is capable of helping me. lol ! he set me back by a shit ton. it also feels like he is being made to say and do certain things to me. its a very uncomfortable feeling. i feel like im back to when i was being abused everyday... i was so wrong about him big time. im super tired now actually i need to take a rest from him as well. and he was only one guy from a huge line of up guys that muscled in on me after the landlords at manning massacred me and forced me into homelessness. the guys moved in on me one after another finding me in the drop ins and meal programs and would not leave me alone until they were done with me.