made two lotions, both failed, heated the oils in the containers but they melted
so i tried to make them anyway
but they failed
and im miserable about it
the facial lotion was the one that didnt work at all so the oils were wasted. 10 grams in total nice oils and a gram of aloe vera powder. ugh. i cant even shower and use it up, melted plastic and all, because of the awkward shower situation. im still pretty annoyed today. nothing turned out. damn. my rooms a mess and it actually might have super bacterias in it considering what it smells like when its left closed up, the guy in here before never cleaned it for 6 years.i fixed my room just the other day so its not so bad but i know its not clean and its getting cluttery. i really hope patrice gives me his portable stove top heating element. so i can make the lotions in my room, despite the weird smell when im not in here. ill leave the aromatizer on. eucalyptus. when im making stuff. ugh. the days been kinda overcast and it was raining yesterday. i dont know how to feel satisfied or content.

.:grates coconut flesh:.